This morning, while I was riding my bike along the river of Tsurumi on my way to work, I saw a dog and its pet human. Maybe it was the other way around but I stand by my impression. The dog was biting and tagging on its leash. Then from out of nowhere, I started singing:
Will you let me go?
No, we will not let you go.
Let him go!
We will not let you go!
And just like that, the rest of my commute was filled with angst.
Happy Halloween!
Now that winter has officially ended, it’s time to look forward to what the other 3 remaining seasons have in store for me and my friends this 2016. But before I do just that, I’d like to write a few sentences for the season that has just gone by. The season I like the most, even though it’s the one responsible for most of my broken bones.
Continue reading “1 Season Down”
Should I re-build my walls?
Back during highschool and up until my early professional life, I had a fortress. An impenetrable one. It was there to keep my affairs, and to some effect my personalities, from getting intertwined. My fortress had four walls, all of which had tiny doors. Only one door is open at any given time and only I can open them. Of course similar to how Rome wasn’t built in a day, my fortress too wasn’t. It was a series of events that led to its creation, and like most, if not all fortresses, it was meant to keep the person inside, my fragile self, safe from the big bad unknown.
Continue reading “Fortress: The First Wall”
Thursday will be a day of beginnings.
I have been assigned a new project which starts tomorrow. And having a new project means having new team mates, new devices, and a new working environment. Tomorrow, I will be commuting to Shin-Yokohama for work, as opposed to Kamoi, and I am excited for all the new things that are about to happen.
Congratulations!
You’ve finally taken that next step. Kudos to you on your bravery.
I remember many years ago when the doubts just started creeping in, and how you struggled with conflicting emotions. You could barely understand what was going on. I mean, how could you? Society wasn’t as educated then as it is now. There were no manuals nor were there prior role models that you could look up to.
Hard as it was, you tried to shun the unorthodox emotions away. You ignored it hoping that whatever it is that’s been clouding your judgement, would resolve itself on its own and would eventually go away.
Continue reading “Legacy”
Relationships are hard work.
This is what I finally realized after having been dating the same person for three years. We are generally happy, and we feel comfortable in each other’s company, most of the time. There were things in the past that challenged our relationship, but none of them ever came close to inflicting any serious damage. Most were just nicks and dents that eventually only made us cherish each other even more. We were an impenetrable fortress.
In retrospect, that last statement may have been the reason for our recent struggles.
As I was talking to one of my dearest friends, a BFFE(E for Eternity), it was brought to my attention that apparently, there exists a four year, give or take a few months, “make or break countdown” when it comes to relationships. I asked her to explain further what she meant by it and what I got in return was possibly one of the most honest conversations I could have with another human being.
I am having a hard time continuing my blog. Putting my thoughts into words is easy. I just type down any random topic that pops into my head and make it coherent for any reader to comprehend and voila! Instant blog done. But for some reason, I want to write about something else.
What that “else” is I have yet to discover.
Hopefully, in the very near future, I am able to focus on something and write about it.
